Expectations

Expectations colossal

We have from our loved ones

Sometimes even more than we deserve

More than the other one is agreeable to accept

Like you covet

That you are the only satisfying means for other

Like your happiness is pleasure of other

And your sadness is excruciating for other

But don’t we expect too much

Aren’t we all just humans?

Who are born alone, live alone, and die alone

Who himself can give the best satisfaction to

Themselves

But what about love than

About the trust we cultivate in others

Aren’t we expected to even expect that much?

Joyous

Satisfied and unperturbed I am feeling today

Like I am prearranged the best I deserved

And Slaughterers of my beautiful panorama toward you

My life…..

Seems like have all finally burnt away

And illimitable again is my euphoria towards you

My life,

And I am finally enjoying your stay

Have you ever been beleaguered by an unavoidable ache

Like pain is relishing its detention in your heart

Like happiness has turned into a god u always pray to

To shower some acquittal and freedom

A respite from this painful dart

And finally you realize… you yourself is the creator

You yourself is the destroyer

And choice of being any one is also yours

You are the master of what you want to think of

Do you really need a respite from a pain?

Which is nothing but state of mind

Which can be changed in a second or two

Do you really want to cry for something?

Something which is not in control of you

Angel

This delicate scent in the air, tonight

Is the keepsake of your presence once

Of your subsistence, of your existence

Of the days you taught me

Of the days you seized me

When I was fallen apart…

Once

Something more than just life you were to me

And I kept you higher than anyone ever

Guardian angel, the first thought in the morning you were

And the first dream in the night I ever wanted to see

Missing you today, dreadfully I am

And searching for your touch

Searching for your eyes, that believed in me more

Searching for your lift, searching for your words

Searching for you today, I am

Why did you have to leave?

Look I have fallen again …

Didn’t I share with you those golden moments?

A lifetime whole, I would like to cherish till death

But you left me

Do you miss me there in heavens?

Friends

Friends, indescribable, are not they?

Cross the threshold as an alien in your life

Like an unknown foreigner, out of the blue

And at a snail’s pace reach out to your heart

For leaving for never

You learn, you share, you cry, you laugh

Together you began writing another story of love

Emotions, exposed

Belief, eternal….isn’t this the most beautiful part

The most invigorating part of our lives, friends

Illumine your moral fiber, during the hours of darkness

And try to make you laugh, when you have forgotten how to smile

Friends – aren’t they?

Lifelines to ones survival……

But hurried we are, today

To win the hearts of our landlords

To survive and to live without a lovable heart

To make friends not with love but for need

And

Burnt is my heart to see them gone by

Who entered with a reason but exited without giving any reason

Lady At The Platform

That lady at the platform

Had all buried in her ageing eyes

Summing up her entire life

With

The saccharine reminisces

Of some dazzling times

Mixed with some nastiest of experiences

Which had damaged her spine

A flashback of all those times

Of all those days

She had registered in the diary of her heart

Of the day she laughed, the day she wept

Of the day when she pledged

That she’s never going to regret

And

Asking herself… did she do well?

Or have wasted this precious gift of god

'LIFE'……

Looking at the stairways,

Those eyes were drowned in the stupor

As if searching for some upheaval

Some disorder,

To break this stillness

Wanting someone to teach her again

How to take those carefree childlike steps

And inject in her fading veins

The innocence of that 4 year old child

Who knows not the way he had lived

And don’t know the way he want to either,

Just singing with the flow.

Unreal

The actors,

Not we all are?

Performing with the finest of our knack

To deceive the assessment of other

About you

To demonstrate a vague depiction of YOU

In the mind of the other

Why cant YOU can be the unfeigned I

Why can’t I amputate this atypical theatrical mask?

And with poise unfold my bona fide view

Why can’t I laugh my earsplitting laughter?

In the times of happiness

And sing a song of my own in the middle of a broken road

And dance to its beat with the alien steps

Fear, is it?

Of being misread

Or being discussed about

Whatever is it?

The one who loses the thrill of living

Is YOU

The Dance ....By Devyani Rai

DR

The clouds run away as the rain approaches
As though not able to bear the exaltation
The trees sway to the unchained melody,
The rain dances in its own tempo:
Sometimes to the soft whispers of the wind
And sometimes to the drums of thunder
As the tempo rises,
The world wakes up.
Even the walls seem to move
As the drops amble down from it…

The dance finishes, but not the rain
It pours down in sheets,
Blurring my eyes…
The wind howls,
Bringing the rain towards me
Drenching a soul thirsting for it…
I welcome the cold; the drops on my face
making it glisten…
My hands move, reach out to catch a drop
I look at it…and then I put it to my lips
As a physical proof of the happiness I now feel.
I savor the drop,
Let it trickle down my throat and inside me
And I have captured the moment today…

The world still swishes to the beats of the storm
But my heart is still now.
‘Because through this wind and the rain
My soul has danced too,
And for this moment
Is at peace…


Sometimes, you don't have words to describe the beautiful milieu you are witnessing.....but if described , can engender something like Devyani has done through this poetry....

The Pain

What am I afraid of?

Is this the apprehension of losing my way again

Fear of losing the sight of stars on a cloudy night

Fear that no connection is timeless

No association is eternal, interminable

Which can hold me unruffled?

During the eon of commotion

And disturbances

Which can reveal to me the hope long forgotten?

In the times of darkest bout

And `place in me the new thrust of living

Every time I fall

Love, is it what I am searching

For someone who can hold me now

And shake me back to my senses

Out of this menacing roar

Unmoved I am, laying here’

With horde of questions looming my siesta

Just wanting to be dead to the world now

And escape from this dreadful being

DREAMZ

Hi DREAMZ,
Well....i dont know the reason why i am writing here again.There are some feelings inside of me which i want to ignore, but, somehow, they keep coming back to me again n again . Thought you may be having the answers my 'old friend'.Surely i missed you a lot all these days, but you are well aware of my reasons for not been able to come back. And i want to apologize to you for such a behavior of mine:(:(:( /SHORRY/
..Running away...i am...surely....not want to come back...no...no....this is not the answer ..but ....strength ...not been able to gather .....composed i am ...but not really....broken .....:(..how am i feeling today.....don't know...happy or sad or just nothing....still wondering what i have done entire day today...wasted again.. as usual ..following that same pattern ....again and again and again.....vicious circle isn't it...the more i try the more badly i fall......shhhh .....these emotions.....
what is it DREAMZ....please help me today....what is it....your help.....do you think i have been like this before..do you think that i am strong enough to bear all this......but WHY??.....keeps coming again and again........
Losing Losing Losing..........Hold on!!!
One of my reasons for not been able to come back to you is the memories you hold my dear friend......MEMORIES....beautiful ones....brilliant ones...But afraid i am today to make them now again....it hurts...when you lose the one you have made them with..HURTS:(....
but again this isn't this the sign of being a coward ..:(...
commitments i have in my life..objectives i have...aims .......you remember once i told you about my dream:D.....beautiful days they were..weren't they??..see what happened...unfair......unfair:(
bbyes DREAMZ...sorry ...this is all i had....sorry...cant write anymore,.,..,,.

Who Am I? ....By Casting Crowns

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You're

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours