DREAMZ

Hi DREAMZ,
Well....i dont know the reason why i am writing here again.There are some feelings inside of me which i want to ignore, but, somehow, they keep coming back to me again n again . Thought you may be having the answers my 'old friend'.Surely i missed you a lot all these days, but you are well aware of my reasons for not been able to come back. And i want to apologize to you for such a behavior of mine:(:(:( /SHORRY/
..Running away...i am...surely....not want to come back...no...no....this is not the answer ..but ....strength ...not been able to gather .....composed i am ...but not really....broken .....:(..how am i feeling today.....don't know...happy or sad or just nothing....still wondering what i have done entire day today...wasted again.. as usual ..following that same pattern ....again and again and again.....vicious circle isn't it...the more i try the more badly i fall......shhhh .....these emotions.....
what is it DREAMZ....please help me today....what is it....your help.....do you think i have been like this before..do you think that i am strong enough to bear all this......but WHY??.....keeps coming again and again........
Losing Losing Losing..........Hold on!!!
One of my reasons for not been able to come back to you is the memories you hold my dear friend......MEMORIES....beautiful ones....brilliant ones...But afraid i am today to make them now again....it hurts...when you lose the one you have made them with..HURTS:(....
but again this isn't this the sign of being a coward ..:(...
commitments i have in my life..objectives i have...aims .......you remember once i told you about my dream:D.....beautiful days they were..weren't they??..see what happened...unfair......unfair:(
bbyes DREAMZ...sorry ...this is all i had....sorry...cant write anymore,.,..,,.